A Trust Fall

I’m scared.

I am filled with so much anxiety I feel as though I am choking. The weight of the pressure and pain crushes down on me and I feel paralyzed by the strain. What lies ahead for me I do not know. That potential and the possibilities and the unknown are terrifying.

I don’t know how I am going to sleep tonight.

I don’t know how I am going to wake up tomorrow morning and face this all again.

Then I hear the reading. “Jesus knew that his hour had come to pass from this world to the Father.” (John 13:1)

I don’t know what awaits me. But Jesus knew what awaited him. And nothing I will ever face will be nearly as terrifying, tortuous, or lasting as what he went through. What he knew he would go through and faced willingly anyway.

How can I not trust God with my simple earthly needs when Jesus trusted Him with it all? “Aware that the Father had put everything into his power…”  (John 13:3) How can I not trust God to take care of me when He has already given me eternity?

Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass me, but not as I will, as you will. (Matthew 26:39, Mark 14:36, Luke 22:42)

Thy kingdom come; thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Jesus, I trust in you.